I got my answer

Well, it looks like I got my answer to the question I asked.... it was not the one I wanted... but I guess in some ways the one I needed.

Someone really cool once said to me:
"Don't forget, it always gets darkest right before it gets pitch black"

He was right.... I think its pitch black now..... now what?

Update: The Move and Decision

For the past 2 months I have been looking for a place to stay, and I found a few nice ones, but nothing really stood out. About 3-4 weeks ago I found a nifty little place, and put in the application… I didn’t hear anything back for a while, until about 2 weeks ago. The landlord said I got approved, and needed more info. So I sent the info requested, and heard nothing for about another week. I then heard that everything went through okay, and now on to the more complicated part… getting the security deposit and rent, and squaring my other bills away so I don’t have to worry about super amounts of debt within a week or so of me moving in… moving sucks enough as is… and I didn’t need any more worries to go along with it. So after having a few very heartfelt conversations with various members of my family… I managed to get everything squared away.

I now am the proud renter of a new place! YAY!

So yeah, I’m now on my way to moving to a new place… moving is really stressful as it is, but all things considered, I’m more stressed than normal. There is a decision pending; one that is not mine to make, but one that affects the outcome of a few decisions that are mine to make…. Luckily the other decisions aren’t too important, but being on the fence about the big decision is making things very difficult to deal with for me.
Up until most recently I was fairly sure about the outcome. Now, I don’t know anymore, and not knowing hurts me the most. The unknown seems to be a problem that everyone has… sometimes it’s just something that you deal with simply… other times it eats away at you until you do know… and then there are the few times that the questions go unanswered… this is why we don’t know whats out there in the universe for us… we’re trying to find the answer, and for some people it deeply disturbs them to not know the answer, but this for me, is much more down to earth… lucky for me, I may not have to wait too long for it, that’s all I can hope for.

I realize very well that this is vague… this is really only for me to look at and know, maybe the person that has to make the decision… but I doubt it. For everyone that reads this… well at least you know to some level what I am going through.
Either way the decision goes, I’ll be happy (kinda) I’d feel better if the decision went my way, but at least I’ll be able to move on if it doesn’t.

Now all I have to do… is ask the question so the decision maker can do their thing, and make the decision...