Updates later.... depressed now...

So yeah, today was going well until Eric got a phone call from his mom telling him that one of his friend's sister died a few days ago and calling hours were tonight. She wasn't close to me (a bit older) but his friend was pretty close to him in HS, and I had talked to him from time to time on the bus. Anyway, it depresses me that the only reason I wear a tie now a days is because either someone is getting married or someone has died.... or the off chance that I have a job interview.

So that's a great way to pretty much start a day....

but wait... there's more! and if you act now... I'll throw in the julianne fry maker for free...


So here I am @ home with my parents feeling kinda glum and all... and I get a phone call from a good friend of mine... I feel bad because I couldn't talk because I had some stuff that I really needed to take care of... but he reminded me that one thing I really wanted to do this summer was go up to the white mountains.... and being the first summer I was away from NH, I wanted to make that happen..... I couldn't... I feel like I let everyone down, I got the time off from one job, but I couldn't get it off from the other..... I got the 4th.... thats it.

I mean, I guess its a good thing, I really need the money to move into a new place (That will come in the next update). And there might be a little bit of awkwardness between Laura and I, but I don't really see that as a problem. But I really wanted to see some people.... like Steve and Tarayn, the remaining 1017 crew, My college friends... you get the idea... I could have done that in 2 days... and right now I don't have that chance. That really kinda gets to me. I hope that I get the chance to go soon.... I know I am missed, by at least a few people.

I love how such a small thing can turn a day inside out.... and how shit seems to love to roll downhill, and not stop at the bottom....

Oh yeah, one last thing... I need to see a dentist soon because I think I broke part of my wisdom teeth.... SUPER.

well... I think thats all I can handle writing right now...